"Mommy, I'm hungry!"
"Mommy, I need _________!"
"Mommy, can we go ____________?"
"Babe, where's my _____?"
"Daddy, where's mommy?"
...Motherhood: I've been sentenced to life.
I love being a mom, but daily I watch my identity as it drifts further and further away from me. There wasn't a manual for this job, and unfortunately there isn't a "Motherhood for Dummies" book. If there was a warning label, would I do it all again?... Short answer: In a Heartbeat. My tribe of minions are my world and I wouldn't trade them for anything.
But I'm exhausted, to say the least. Mountains of never ending laundry, ceiling high toy mazes, dishes for days and I see more asses than a strip club.
I'm the proud mom of a seven year old genius (LD), a two year old terrorist (CJ), and a 4 month old howl at the moon calming Buddha baby (Marleigh).
Did I mention I have a husband?! Oh yea! I have a husband, who after an exhausting day still expects me to give him "special attention" with the enthusiasm of a teenage boy who just discovered free internet porn.
Some days I put my hands in front of my eyes and pretend that I'm invisible, but since my two year old has super sonic bionic vision, he sees straight through me. I find a great deal of comfort in retail therapy but our single income budget is no match for my spending habits. With three kids, two in diapers and one with monster size feet who seems to need new shoes every other month, I found a way to make it work and it barely cost me anything. While I could rejoin the workforce, I sincerely enjoy being a stay at home wife and mother and I'm on a never ending quest to find ways to stay home with them.
So join me on my Wilder life of chaotic days, ways to ball on a budget, stories of my loving family and my never ending quest to maintain balance and keep a sense of self.